Winter

The cold has settled in for a long winter's nap over Minnesota. I really ... trying to think of a word besides despise and hate here ... really prefer warmth. I mean at least 30 degrees or higher. I am a reasonable woman, right? So what happens every winter is I get lathargic. I gain 10 pounds during the first cold fall month and keep it all winter only to lose it quickly in the spring when it starts to warm up. This winter my goal is to not gain more than in the past. I already accomplished the 10 and feel headed down a slippery slope of tired, lack lustre, mediocrity. I am going to allow myself some of this. After all I lost a child less than three months ago but I do know I need to be careful. When mental illness affects the number of people it does, 1:3, you can never be too careful.
Things I am doing to prevent further spiraling down?
1. Yoga ... at least I think I am.
2. Attending community ed classes ... took one last night on social marketing
3. Reading a lot. I love a good book! They make me excited about life.
4. Cooking with a ton of vegetables and avoiding comfort foods as much as possible except when I need an exception
5. Focusing on Aaron and Evie, they need me besides they are pretty funny and cute.

I recently heard about two girls who killed themselves both 14 years old. It makes me so sad for them and their families. How can people get to be that sad and that lonely? I know one was a result of bullying and I don't know about the other, I think it was chemical imbalance which is tricky. We have an obligation to make sure the people around us are ok. It matters. A lot.

I am ok. A little fatter than I like to be but really, I am ok.
Thanks for checking in on me!